So I had an epiphany this week…
I’m behind on my posts for this blog.
No, that wasn’t the epiphany. I’ve felt the “behind on my posts” sensation for at least a few weeks now, maybe longer. It’s been gnawing at me, the way that missed deadlines or belated birthday cards gnaw at me. I hate to be late. Hate. It. Very. Much. So if I’m late for something, there’s usually a reason. Either I’m stuck and can’t find a solution, or I’m too overwhelmed to find time, or, most often, I’m not enjoying the process and so I’m (in typical Aries fashion) butting my head into the wall and yelling, “no, no, no!” instead of doing whatever it is I’m supposed to be doing.
I realized that the latter (combined with a bit of the super-busy part) was the case with this blog. It isn’t that I don’t enjoy the blog, or the learning process. It’s that I’ve made it too strict, too specific. I’ve boxed myself into something that’s so narrow style-wise, that I am not enjoying the process at all. And that’s a bad thing.
So I hereby give myself permission to explore this learning process however I like. Whether that be through a series of photos, an essay, a couple of poems, a few words here and there, a link or six. I want to bring the joy back into both learning and blogging. I want to play, to explore, to dive headfirst into whatever I’m learning and then process it here in whatever ways I see fit. And most of all, I want to be as excited to write the rest of the learning posts as I was to write this one tonight, after I had my epiphany in the shower.
Here’s to this silly, ongoing learning process of ours. Hallelujah! s.
“Nothing is softer or more flexible than water, yet nothing can resist it” ~Lao Tzu